So I guess na yung late new year blog ko na hinihintay mo. Sorry I wasn't able to make up for that. And sorry again if madami akong words na hindi ko napuput into actions. And sorry na sobrang selfish and insensitive ko most of the time. Talagang weakness ko sila and praying na patuloy na baguhin ng Lord.
I just want you to know na alam kong ang cause ng anxiety mo ay yung reaction ko dun sa regalo mo. I'm so sorry and I do appreciate the effort. Hindi lang talaga ako sanay na pinag eeffort and most especially, we are not in the place to make a move sa situation natin. Alam kong nagmumuka akong hindi sumusunod sa Lord but this is the way He is leading me eh. And I'm thinking that God is even using each other to test us kasi eventually we'll have more of this in the future. Sorry if sinabi kong ibigay mo na lang kay lola, I didnt know na flowers pala sya. Sorry talaga. Ayoko lang kasing masayang yung effort kasi I know na wala akong gagawin or hindi ako makikipagkita sayo for that. That will put me sa sobrang hirap na position compromising my ministry and my disciples. 😔 Kahit gaano pa katagal at gaano katuyo ang flowers, I'll be very happy to receive when the time is right.
Pero ngayon kasi we are not really in the position to fight for it, unless willing ka ng bumalik dito ang fight for the 2nd time around, but I think it still is not the right.
So just keep thay gift and letter for me. 😊
Alam kong mahirap sa part mo because it appears like I'm rejecting you, sorry talaga. 😔 Sana nauunawaan mo yung sitwasyon 😔
Praying na mawala na yung anxiety mo. You will always be the 2nd best thing that has ever happened to me, di naman magbabago yun, may gift man o wala. I'll always appreciate you! ❤️
Ttyl captain!
xxJas
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